Tag: andreil

andrewjmnyrd:

until neil, no one in andrew’s life has been particularly good to him. until neil, everyone that’s ever been close to him has caused him pain and has fucked up his perception of love and affection. neil is the first constant in andrew’s life that hasn’t and would never hurt him. it’s the first time someone sacrifices themselves for him, after andrew has spent years making deals to protect the ones he cares about. and that’s why andrew hates neil so much. andrew has been forced to give his whole life and suddenly neil comes around and gives andrew his back and his life and his truths and doesn’t ask for anything back. neil trusts andrew enough to stop running when he asks him to. and andrew hates him because it’s starting to feel a lot like love

whimsyalice:

au where Neil and Katelyn work at a coffee shop, the twins are frequent visitors but rarely do they ever go in together.

  • Andrew tends to go to the cafe around the time Neil has a shift and Aaron when Katelyn has shift (have they shifted their schedules to accommodate for a certain cute barista, no of course not, pfft)
  • Andrew likes to annoy Neil by telling him he made his drink wrong(tells him he wants a free drink next time he comes in). neil hates him and does give him a free drink only to have it be the sweetest concoction ever(bc who could like something so poisonously sweet) Spoiler alert: Andrew does. Cue his salute and “better luck next time” as he exits the cafe
  • next time andrew comes in neil makes him most bitter black coffee ever.
  • andrew is all like challenge accepted and looks neil straight in the eye as he pours nearly half the sugar container into his cup of coffee. raises the cup to him as if toasting to him, ‘cheers’ and walks out of the fucking cafe
  • Neil doesn’t realize he’s been giving andrew a free drink every time he comes. andrew however does.
  • katelyn flirts with aaron every time he comes in. their encounters are a mix of awkward chatter and flirtations. aaron has been trying to ask her for her number for some time now. katelyn has been getting up the courage to write her number on his cup
  • neil comes in to relieve katelyn of her shift and sees one of the twins just walk out of the shop and he tells her how much of an asshole he is and katelyn is like what?? you’re wrong. katelyn is like his name is aaron and he’s a sweetheart and neil is like his name is andrew and he’s a fucking ass
  • so in order to prove each other wrong they move their schedules around to have several shifts together.(this also confuses the twins because like what happened to their cute barista)
  • matt and dan work the register, both have a sneaking suspicion that they are twins but they don’t say anything because they think it’s hilarious.they also have a bet going on as to who will realize it first. matt bets on neil(of course). they are sure to put themselves on the same shift as neil and katelyn
  • aaron walks in while they are both working and neil watches as aaron completely ignores him in favor of katelyn. and he smiles and laughs and what the fuck. and katelyn gets the courage to put her phone number on the cup, feeling all triumphant over neil
  • neil is actually offended(which actually surprises neil because he should be glad he is ignoring him but he’s not, how dare this fucker not talk to him after all the shit he has put neil through) and is about to go off on him when andrew walks in.
  • aaron and andrew both look at each like what the fuck are you doing here
  • and katelyn and neil look at each other like, they’re fucking twins
  • dan and matt call it a draw
  • neil writes his number on andrew’s cup because why the fuck not

4:31 pm

Neil: i don’t know how to make this feeling go away.
this heaviness. this emptiness.
i  feel this urge to run.
to run and run and run.
but i need to know how to make this feeling disappear.
i need to know that my veins are more
than the blue of interstate lines of maps,
that my bones can feel more than the jolt of pavement
each time my feet hit the ground.
i need my neck to stop the ache of turning,
of checking and checking.
i need to let my hands feel something else,
something besides the cold barrel of a gun.
i want to lose my breath,
not because i was shot or stabbed or scared,
but because i wanted to.
because i got lost in the moment of tangled hair
and hands, and my limbs got heavy
and my eyes were full of you.
(MESSAGE DELETED)

Bad day. Roof?
(MESSAGE SENT)

4:35 pm

Andrew: today i looked in the mirror.
i saw something that looked a little bit
like falling and my throat constricted.
i saw something that made my chest heavy,
made my body shiver.
it was a feeling i have heard of
but have no experience with.
it is the type of feeling
to start wars, to burn cities, to die for.
they always say you cannot recover from this.
i got scared.
because this type of feeling is something new,
something other than sitting on the edge of the world,
something other than the burn of smoked out lungs.
this feeling is rolling over on cold sheets,
only to find them empty.
it is driving for hours without an extra hand
on the center console.
there is no coming back from that.
(MESSAGE DELETED)

be there in 10
(MESSAGE SENT)

4:37 pm

Neil: sometimes it really feels like the world
has raged war on my life,
that all it has done is taken and taken.
i thought i had nothing left to give them.
but i know now that isn’t true
because the smoke longer smells of her.
it is rooftops and traded secrets,
long nights spent tracing skin over thin, fragile bones.
i thought i had nothing left to give
but if they take you,
i know i won’t have the will survive.
(MESSAGE DELETED)

bring a lighter. mine is out.
(MESSAGE SENT)

4:40 pm

Andrew: the world has taken and taken,
everything i could’ve had, i never got.
i fought day after day to keep what i could.
i fought until i had nothing left to give.
but now i am taking back
and i keep looking over my shoulder,
waiting for them to come and take you back.
i’ll fight harder next time though,
because what i have is worth it.
(MESSAGE DELETED)

okay i will
(MESSAGE SENT)

“We Have So Much To Say, But No Courage To Send It.” 
(via palstate-foxes)

ALL THE TIMES THAT NEIL CAN’T OPEN A WATER BOTTLE AND ANDREW DOES IT FOR HIM

philosophium:

Taylor, my wife, loml, you are the best and it has been six months since you sent this and I’m sorry, but here’s me trying to make up for that
i had to start with one that’s like basically canon sns
and so I present to you, my dear: 5 times Andrew opens a water bottle for Neil and 1 time he doesn’t

I.

After a life on the run, working and living through life-threatening injuries, Neil never imagined that small acts could cause him so much pain. But simply trying to twist the cap off of his water bottle has him crying out and cradling his hands to his chest. 

“What did I tell you,” Andrew asks, seemingly uninterested.

Neil grits his teeth around the pain. He knows what Andrew said. 

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nickyklose:

Russian study sessions and integration:

  • Neil attaching vocab words onto furniture (bonus points for when he starts doing it at the court too)
  • counting off their workout reps in Russian
  • accidental introductions of new words via surprised shouts (usually rude ones snarled during heated games or practices) you can’t tell me andrew didn’t learn swears quickly
  • Andrew dumping his person onto Neil’s flashcard covered bed with a bored look and quizzing him
  • small study sessions at the back of the bus
    • some vocab drilling but mostly they talk about the area they’re passing through, or they might play car games–picture I spy
    • I like to think that they have more heart-to-hearts like the one in tkm, just Neil passing the time telling Andrew little stories of him and his mom. Or that during Andrew’s 5th year when the team is on the way home from distant away games Neil can’t help but reflect on what’s going to happen with Andrew leaving and he just needs to say something but there are too many foxes in the bus at that point
  • during exy games when they’re both on the bench, they take turns narrating the game (well, Neil narrates, and Andrew picks out mistakes the other goal keeper makes)
  • covert dirty talk there’s no getting around it
  • Andrew wanting to annoy/unnerve the more grating freshman so he picks up the habit of staring at them and talking to Neil about their weekend plans
    • kid gets back to his dorm later like, “do u think minyard’s out to get me?” “bro, maybe you shouldn’t be a dick to his cousin” “bro, I didn’t even start that” “…dude”
  • having alone time where they’re committed to only speaking with e/o in Russian:
    • imagine that they’re just hanging out on the roof: Neil’s head resting against Andrew’s thigh, one of Neil’s hands is holding a burning cigarette while his other is curled up near his face, thumb rubbing circles into Andrew’s knee cap
    •  (they’re never deep conversations: Andrew mentioning what Bee is going as for halloween, Neil talking about potential players he and Wymack are scouting, Andrew reporting on his sparing lessons with Robin, getting up to date on their teammate’s bets, Neil filling in Andrew on the upperclassmen’s Real Life adventures)
    • It’s comfy and relaxed so they let their sentences lag. depending on the day they might be left unfinished for lack of energy
      • save for when they’re left unfinished because Neil can’t quite find the word that he’s looking for
      • Neil has a habit of squinting at his smoke trail when he forgets a word, a tail Andrew picks up on, smoothing his hand through Neil’s hair as he tries to fill in the blanks