Neil “hate to see you leave but love to watch you go” Josten
Neil “hate to see you leave but love to watch you go” Josten
me: i’m tired the world is a terrible place and i want to die
the king’s men by nora sakavic: Andrew’s bottomless rage would never hurt Nathaniel, and that made all the difference in the world.
me: nvm all is well
ok but the shower scene (and the scene preceding it) in TKM is so important to me?? and it ain’t just about the bj. first, andrew was prodding neil’s hoodie to see if he was wearing anything underneath and it’s so cute but then! andrew could’ve just let neil wrap himself up with the garbage bags and tape but no,, andrew does it for him, and he does a damn good job too (neil was prepared for pain when he stepped under the shower but was surprised that he didn’t feel a twinge of pain at all like scuse me while i cry about andrew’s meticulousness). and ofc andrew proceeds to wash neil’s hair efficiently and gently (these are canon words, mind you. do you ever cry because andrew is being gentle). BUT what kills me is that andrew takes off his arm bands??? ok so a couple of things: if he was wearing short sleeves, it meant that he was letting neil see his scars. second, even if he was wearing long sleeves, do you realize that he took off his arm bands, you know, the things he carries his knives around in. his weapons. he is letting himself be unarmed in front of neil and im like??? and ofc we have the scene where andrew is only in a towel (and probably his wet pants) while he dries neil and helps him put on clothes…..im just…..do you ever just wanna cry and die
is nobody going to talk about this?? like, andrew’s pettiness has always been obvious, especially in scenes like when he threw neil’s keys off the roof, but this one is gold imo. he forgoes the chance to make out and share a moment of privacy with neil because he’s full of spite and doesn’t want to accept any “help” from nicky, especially not in matters of his not-relationship. like. andrew. my boy
deadass one of my fav moments in TKM is when neil shoves kevin against the door because kevin won’t stop bitching about neil’s attitude and his hobby of antagonizing riko and andrew cleanly side-steps outta the way like andrew had attacked matt for hitting kevin but neil is more than welcome to take a go at day lmao
i was on the bus yesterday re-reading tfc and when i came across the lines “you aren’t going anywhere. you’re staying here” and “what would it take to make you stay?” ofc i knew that they’re parallels to what happens in tkm in that Hotel Scene™ but i was just wondering if when andrew tells neil that the first time, is he re-assuring neil or himself? because like, we know that andrew thinks neil is “unreal”, that he’s a pipe dream and a side effect of the drugs, so when he says “you’re not going anywhere” that first time in tfc, i wonder if it’s more for himself than it is for neil and for their deal. andrew has been trying to keep this one thing, this person that seems too good and interesting to be true, since the beginning, even though he knows that this could be a problem and idk where i was going with this but i just wanted you guys to know that andrew minyard makes me cry everyday
edit to add: remember when neil told andrew in tkm that he’s not a pipe dream and that he’s not going anywhere? yeah. i die every time
Nothing but My Aching Soul 