“…and it feels like someone’s cut you open with a jagged piece of glass.”

“Get away from us“

Andreil and the “Wicked Game” (x)

I always thought the lyrics fit WAY too well.

russian association

ok so I’ve been thinking a lot about how andreil learn Russian
together and how it is something that brings them closer together and reminds
them of the other. It then got me thinking about Russian terms of endearment
(and I saw a post about this the other day that just further fueled me) and how
they would use Russian terms for each other because no one else would know what
they’re saying. BUT THEN I was thinking about what would happen if they started
using those terms to wake the other up from nightmares and this is what
happened:

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poemsforpersephone:

there is a difference
between wanting nothing
and not wanting anything.

the first is a longing
for the kind of absolution only
death can buy / a desperation for
the end because the in-between is
cruel and you are so tired.

you live your life
around nothing, until ‘nothing’
becomes a boy with a jigsaw past and an
attitude problem / until ‘nothing’ becomes
palms pressed to the back of shivering
necks / until it becomes yes or no and always
and stay and a key traced into skin.

‘nothing’ ceases to be an abyss, forgets
how to be void / ‘nothing’ keeps you warm
at night, ‘nothing’ holds you steady,
‘nothing’ trusts you, ‘nothing’ begins to love you.

nothing becomes many things.
and for once?
you want everything.

l.s. | NOTHING HOLDS YOU STEADY (LIKE HE DOES) © 2016

requiemofkings:

commission for sheerpoetry7!! thank you!

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audreil:

for @key-called-home bc i made her cry a lot today

okay so andrew isn’t really a forehead kisses person or a cheek kisses person i think thats the consensus yes

but listen to me alright neil josten Loves to kiss andrew’s cheeks and forehead and the tip of his nose and his fingers

basically anywhere that isnt his lips

he picks it up from dan & matt and he just,, he falls in love with casual kisses

like for example when he wakes up and finds andrew in the kicthen making coffee, he’ll walk by and press a kiss to the top of andrew’s head with a quiet “morning”

or when andrew’s sitting on the beanbag or on the couch and neil plops down next to him, he’ll lean over and kiss andrew’s cheek – maybe the corner of his mouth

when they’re showering together, his hands in andrews hair, he’ll kiss andrew’s neck and his jaw because he likes that andrew likes it

when they’re at eden’s twilight, sometimes a lof of the time they’ll just find a private corner and maybe on occasion neil will put an arm around andrew

on really sappy occasions he might tell andrew he’s happy and properly kiss him

theres times when the foxes get together in a dorm for movie nights and ofc andrew sits next to neil and sometimes neil just links his fingers with andrew’s

and absently fiddles with them. andrew lets him do it because he likes it too

sometimes a lot of times neil makes comments about whatever they’re watching and he whispers them in andrew’s ears

thats when hes actually paying attention to what thyre watching

post games, neil is the only one to hug andrew on the court and only sometimes

in the locker room, neil tells him he was amazing and might kiss his forehead

all the while andrew is growing Tired

all he wants to do is kiss this asshole properly he just wants a good ol’ make out session sometimes

A Real Kiss

so one night hes in bed, a book in hand, and neil leans down to kiss his head and andrew says “no”

and neil stops of course

neil gets in bed on his side and doesn’t push andrew doesn’t ask why

so after a while andrew puts the book down and asks “yes or no?”

and neil is a little ?? but yes of course its a yes

so andrew grips his face with both hands finally and kisses his mouth

dear god he’s been wanting a real kiss for so long and neil can tell that fucking shitstick and he smiles so big into the kiss

when andrew pulls away for a second to breathe again neil presses a kiss just at the corner of his mouth and laughs at the unimpressed look he gets

parabctai:

“Ninety percent of the time the very sight of you makes me want to commit murder. I think about carving the skin from your body and hanging it out as a warning to every other fool who thinks he can stand in my way.“
“What about the other ten?”

juniebuglovesyou:

y’all can u BELIEVE that andrew minyard would willingly burn the world to find neil fucking josten. can u believe he “wanted to shove aside anyone standing in his way, wanted to tear the stadium down bench by bench and bolt by bolt, until he figured out where neil was,” ‘cos sometimes i Remember That and i just fucking die

f-ire-fly:

A L L FOR THE G A M E

The other 10% of the time, Neil is still important enough to keep around, and Andrew will deal with his idiocy as long as he has to.

9% of the time he thinks killing Neil might be the one thing he can’t come back from, the one thing it might hurt to lose.

7~8% of the time it feels like falling, and to a man afraid of heights it is a terrible and frightening sensation.

The more he falls for Neil the more he hates Neil, because Neil is the one thing in the world that could destroy him, and Andrew isn’t ready for that.

He just doesn’t realize yet he’s too late to stop it. –(Nora Sakavic x )