me fall semester: wakes up at precisely 6am each morning, uses a planner, color codes notes, interacts with peers, has an overall positive outlook for the future
me spring semester: lying face down on the floor surrounded by overdue assignments, fiber one brownie crumbs stuck to my face, not sure if it’s wednesday or sunday, waiting for the sweet release of death

what she says: i love adam parrish
what she means: adam parrish is one of the most dynamic, fascinating, carefully written characters i’ve ever read. his struggles are both everyday and magical, and his character development is beyond beautiful. i love adam parrish’s love, his anger, his sadness, his joy, his magic. he doesn’t let his negative circumstances control him. adam parrish has fought for everything he has, and he has won. adam parrish has succeeded. he is the best of us. i would lay down my life for adam parrish

Doctor: What brings you here today?

Me: can you hear my heartbeat?

Doctor: yeah, of course. What seems to be the issue?

Me: tired of feeling never enough.

Doctor: have you tried anything to feel better?

Me: i close my eyes and tell myself that my dreams will come true.

Doctor [starts crying] : they’ll be no more darkness…