Tag: i cry

nickyhenmick:

anonymous asked: So in Nora’s extra content she says andreil go on dates to resteraunts/walks on the beach etc, could you maybe right about their first real date?

  • okay so the first “date” of theirs is while they’re still at palmetto
  • the food at the dining hall was going to be shit that night and everyone was getting on neil’s nerves and he was gonna lose it if they stayed there so andrew just looked at him and was like “we’re leaving”
  • neil immediately agrees and texts kevin that they won’t be at night practice
    • cue “what the fuck neil” text that prompts neil to turn his phone off
  • they get into the maserati and andrew just drives for a couple hours, headed southeast
  • the drive alone is enough to relax neil, but then they get into charleston and neil starts to get curious (and a lil excited) about what andrew is planning
  • they left as soon as they were done with class in the afternoon and there wasn’t much traffic, but the drive was almost three and a half hours, so neil is hungry enough to eat dinner
  • andrew just glances over at him and maneuvers through the city, eventually turning right onto a street with a bunch of restaurants and saying “pick one”
  • neil, after all his years on the run, is really really good at knowing instinctively which restaurants are going to be good but not too expensive, so he scans the road before naming one
  • the place isn’t anything special, it doesn’t stand out among any other american diners, but neil was right and the food is really good
  • they chat about a little bit of everything: of all the cities neil had been with his mother, charleston was never one of them, so he rambles off some observations about the buildings and the grid of the city that he didn’t realize he had noticed on the drive in
  • andrew is amused enough to pay attention, and in exchange he recounts a story from high school where nicky dragged him and aaron to charleston for the weekend to try to bond but it didn’t exactly go well 
  • they finish eating but neither of them want to leave yet so they end up wandering the streets
  • they end up walking on a sidewalk parallel to the beach, and the smell of the salt water surprisingly doesn’t remind neil of his mother, at least, not in a bad way
  • “have you ever been to the beach? for fun?” neil asks
  • andrew considers the question as he smokes. “a couple times. cass took me for a day trip once.”
  • that was more than neil was expecting to get, and he smiles as he looks out over the waves
  • “i think the last time i went for fun was when i was a kid. maybe 4 or 5 years old? my mom somehow managed to convince my dad that she could take me. i think he sent some security with us, but still.”
  • “sounds better than the last time you two were at the beach together,” andrew says, partially bc he’s a dick but also because he can tell neil was already thinking about it
  • neil nods but doesn’t say anything, but the next time there’s a walkway leading down to the sand he turns to take it, stepping out of his shoes to carry them in his hands
  • behind him he can hear andrew sigh loudly in protest but he follows him down the wooden planks, stopping to remove his shoes as well
  • they walk up and down the beach, kicking at the sand and occasionally stepping into the waves washing against the shore (and taking breaks to make out since somehow they’re the only people on the beach)
  • it’s all very cute and gay
  • eventually the sun has set and both of them are tired enough to know they should leave now if they want to make it back to campus
  • andrew gets them back to the car much faster than neil could, and neil low key falls asleep in the passenger seat on the drive home
  • he wakes up when andrew pulls into the parking lot of fox tower, and yawns as he walks inside with andrew
  • neil asks for permission when they walk through the door to the building, and andrew raises his eyebrows before nodding and neil just takes his hand and holds it as the elevator door opens to take them to the third floor
  • andrew rolls his eyes but doesn’t let neil’s hand go
  • they share a bed that night bc neil can’t be bothered to climb into his loft
  • none of the foxes know where they went, and none of them ever find out, and neil and andrew like it that way. they like that this is their own thing and start doing it more and more frequently, just going to different cities and exploring them for the first time, together

kibumunnie:

jeanmoreos:

full offense, but when will people clue in to the fact that nicky hemmick is more than his sexuality and stop acting like being gay is a personality trait and his only one at that

Dude. I will kick an ass for Nicky Hemmick. That boy is strong as fuck. (Bear with me, my timeline is rusty at best) He survived 17 years with parents who wanted to drown out every last spark of who Nicky was, wanted to erase his sexuality to the point of sending him to conversion camp.

You ever been to or even talked to someone who was in one of those hellholes? It’s like emotional water boarding, every fucking hour of every fucking day. For Nicky to go through that and still be a functioning person is beyond amazing.

For Nicky to walk away from a sure thing, from his happy ending to take care of two kids who gave him nothing but grief – one, out and out hostility! The other fucking death threats! – is a sort of selflessness that I have no problem admitting that I don’t have. That shows an incredible capacity for love and forgiveness that no one seems to give a shit about.

Nicky surrounds himself with people who are too broken to ever really love him as much as he loves them and he does it anyway. (I am in no way trying to imply that the twins, or Neil, or the Upperclassmen, or fuck, even Kevin, don’t love Nicky in their own ways, just not in the language of love that Nicky speaks. Don’t worry, he starts to learn the dialects.)

He comes to PSU with these kids who don’t actually legally need him anymore because Andrew asked. Andrew wouldn’t take this good thing without him so he came. Because Andrew saved his life and was now addicted to court-ordered mania inducing who knows what. (Fuck you if you don’t think Nicky stayed up at least four, five, six times listening to Andrew’s withdrawal through the bathroom door before he realized he wouldn’t be allowed to help.) Nicky puts on this loud person to distract from the twins. They get judged enough without anyone actually looking close enough to exploit the cracks in their relationship.

Nicky Hemmick is love and forgiveness and a safe place to land. And fuck anybody who only sees the loud proud boy he finally gets the chance to be.

kevin day + neil josten headcanons

neilswesninski:

  • kevin and neil are always yelling at each other on court, but when the game/practice is over, they’re the first to pat the other on the back and say “good game” or “could’ve been worse” or “nice work”
  • they always do grocery runs together, because kevin wants to grab healthy food and because andrew sends neil to make sure he gets his candy
  • for kevin’s birthday neil gets him a trojan’s shirt and a bottle of vodka
  • for neil’s birthday kevin gets him running shoes and a weekend alone with andrew in their dorm room
  • neil chewed out a reporter who was telling kevin off for not attending riko’s funeral, and when he finally stopped to take a deep breath, he was literally dragged away by wymack before he could continue
  • the first time neil gets drunk at eden’s twilight, him and kevin became best friends for the night, dancing, taking selfies, and nicky has photographic proof of kevin kissing neil on the cheek, an event kevin will deny happening until the day he dies
    • he also denies cuddling neil in while they slept on the bus after a long game but that’s another story
  • they both go to exites together once a month to check out the new equipment, and every time they get back the rest of the foxes always ask them how their date was
  • kevin always competes with neil on the treadmill in the workout room, and only won once (because neil got distracted staring at andrew’s biceps when he began benchpressing and had to stop and redirect his thoughts)
  • one time kevin walked in while neil was having a panic attack about riko, and when he realized andrew was still in class, he calmed neil down himself by whispering gentle words to him in french
    • they then sat on the couch for the entire duration of finding nemo and finding dory because kevin knows that they’re neil’s favourite
  • when neil was accepted into his pro team right after he graduated, a few tears escaped kevin’s eyes because here was this boy, who didn’t think he’d live to be 20, holding his future in an envelope in his hands