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abramsjosten:

ways andrew and neil show affection part 1 / part 2:

• when neil is too tired after a game to shower properly, andrew hopping in the shower with him claiming he ‘wouldn’t be able to stand the smell’
• andrew pretends he doesn’t care about anything but his fingers in neil’s hair, softly untangling say otherwise
• andrew’s hands on his chest, neck, hips, covering neil’s fading scars with love bites and a few accidental bruises that make neil smile when he presses on them
• sitting on the sofa, andrew with a book in hand and neil bothering him about the plot and the characters until andrew kisses him silent
• silent confessions exchanged in the darkness of their bedroom, truths that don’t require anything back
• laying in bed together, andrew making up constellations out of neil’s freckles
• sometimes he names them, and neil ends up kissing him until he’s the one seeing stars
• andrew’s hand brushing on neil’s back or lingering near his waist when he’s on edge, a silent promise of ‘i’m not letting you go’ 
• andrew allowing himself to be vulnerable around neil, learning to accept proximity and human warmth again
• andrew holding neil’s face in his hands when he’s self-conscious, thumbs brushing against his scars until he’s okay again
• neil ripping to shreds anyone who dares calling andrew a monster or soulless
• andrew intertwines their fingers or puts his hand on the back of neil’s neck and neil can’t help but wonder ‘is this what a monster would do? they don’t know you like i know you’
• andrew ordering too much food for himself on purpose when they eat out to give the rest to neil because he knows he still feels bad about spending too much money
• half-whispered ‘i love you’s against each other’s mouths, ones they don’t always say back, ones they can pretend they didn’t hear, but ones they always believe