fCUK – Nothing but My Aching Soul

allyasavedtheday:

but guyyyyyyyyys we always talk about neil missing andrew when they’re separated during neil’s last year in palmetto but what about andrew!!!! missing!!! neil!!!!

andrew, who is on his own for the first time in five years

no aaron, no nicky, no kevin, no neil

andrew, who only ever wanted to be left alone, who craved peace and quiet, suddenly feeling like he’s going to suffocate in the silence of his new apartment

andrew going to bed alone for the first time in about three years (bc it took a lil time for them to get used to sharing a bed but once they did they never slept apart) and he hates it

at fox tower there were still rare nights sometimes where he couldn’t share a bed with neil but neil was still always there, just a few feet away if andrew needed him

now neil is hundreds of miles away and andrew feels wrong sleeping alone and it fucks him up so bad????

because he never really realised all the ways his relationship with neil was changing him

and now he doesn’t know what to do bc suddenly the things he once hated are now things he craves

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