Tag: do you ever stop crying

czarrish:

auroralynches:

but god, adam so clearly loves the barns and associates them with safety and belonging and home so much more than he ever does the trailer park and that just speaks such volumes about his relationship with ronan and how even though they fight constantly and people think ronan seems scary or intimidating or criminal, adam never, not even once, thinks of him as anything other than safe

#like?? the sense of safety in adam’s narration re: ronan is amazing#i mean not that he feels any less safe around the other main characters#but ronan is so violent and harsh and physical#that the fact that adam–a survivor of serious physical abuse–can stand 2 feet away as ronan destroys a room#and be totally and completely calm#really speaks to how utterly sure he is that ronan would never hurt him#that his physical violence would never turn towards him#that’s a frankly amazing level of trust to have in someone#especially for a very recent abuse survivor#and these tags are completely veering off from my original point which was:#adam fantasizes about growing up at the barns#adam fantasizes about being ‘allowed to want this home for himself’#adam is amazed ronan’s so fierce when the barns are so protected#adam thinks of the barns as safety and a home#even if it’s not his personally#just fuck me up (via auroralynches)