Tag: adam parrish

dear adam,
i am unwound.

dear adam,
my fists bite concrete like an apple, my knuckles are blood-stained and singing. my hands are confused. my hands are all turned around. they don’t know what to do when they’re not reaching for you.

dear adam,
if i dreamt you, does that mean we get to do what we do in my dreams? a wonder of muscles and organs, synapses and nerves. a miracle of moving- nevermind.

dear adam,
god doesn’t know who you are, but he knows who i am, what i am, what this is. i am always asking, “please?” and i am always looking at you.

dear adam,
i get reckless when i think about your mouth. gas pedal, shift. your skin. gas pedal, shift. your throat. gas pedal, shift. your mouth. crash.

dear adam,
the secrets inside of me know your name.

dear adam,
i can build that ramp to the moon for you. let me take you somewhere where you can finally sleep. i can build a world for us, for you. i can build eveything but you loving me back.

“DEAR ADAM”, kat excelsors (via excelsors)

adamsrcnan:

Here’s another extremely long list of all my favourite (and underrated) quotes either said by Adam Parrish or about him from the raven cycle: 

The Raven Boys: 

  • Adam had once told Gansey, rags to riches isn’t a story anyone wants to hear until after its done.
  • Success meant nothing to Adam if he hadn’t done it for himself.
  • Blue thought she heard music, but when she looked at Adam, she thought perhaps it had just been the sound of his breathing. 
  • Reality was a bridge breaking beneath Adam. 
  • The world hummed around Adam, suddenly charged with possibilities, not all of them pleasant. 
  • Nothing was the truth until he could put his hands on it. 
  • Adam didn’t like to be accused of lying. He usually had better ways of getting what he wanted. 
  • Adam laughed out loud and she [Blue] discovered that she was starting to really like this laugh that burst out of him and seemed to surprise him every time.
  • “My mother used to say don’t throw away compliments so long as they’re free.” His face was very earnest. “That one wasn’t meant to cost you anything.”   
  • [about ronan and chainsaw] “You look like a super-villain with your familiar.”   
  • Adam said rather more ferocious than he’d been a moment before “A friend wouldn’t kill you“ 
  • Adam had been making sacrifices for a very long time, and he knew what the hardest one was. On his terms or not at all. 
  • The most important thing to Adam Parrish though had always been free will, the ability to be his own master. 

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ganseys-epi-pen:

adam parrish grew up without love or kindness. adam parrish grew up with a jar of pennies and nickles he found on the ground, and ended up surrendering to his mother when he saw her crying over an electric bill.  adam parrish grew up with a father he thought was the world, who had back pains he drank and drank and drank for, who saw something in adam that he didn’t like, and slowly he beat the love out of adam parrish. 

adam parrish thought he was dust. it was the color of his skin, his hair, his home. nothing about him was shiny or new. he snatched pencils off the ground when he saw them, he didn’t make many friends. adam parrish thought that he was desolate ground that love couldn’t grow in. adam parrish thought his soil composition was all wrong.

adam parrish prayed that he would never break a bone, never crack a tooth. adam parrish walked lightly for fear of causing the same damage his father did after a long day of work, a bad headache, a traffic jam caused by an agonbly boy’s car crash. adam parrish looked enviously a boys with spring in their step, who were clearly not running on a stomach half full of shitty ravioli from a can and beans, a stomach that hardly ever knew dairy because it was expensive.

adam parrish looked at boys lounging on their cars and felt envy. envy that they could so effortlessly drive around, not a clue what was under the hoods, that they could own something that ran smoothly and never get grease under their fingernails.  adam parrish had to bike everywhere, and one day, running on too little food and too little sleep and too much sress, he saw he king of all boys, the boy he should absolutely loathe for his money and glory, standing in front of a broken down orange monster.  it was so human, so familiar, that he stopped, and called out to him.

adam parrish had friends.  it was shocking to him, a boy who thought that he was made of dirt and dark, hot pangs of jealousy,  that there were people who wanted to be around him, that there was a boy with a tattoo who stared at him like he was every beautiful thing. he felt like a fake person, a cheap knockoff. they treated him like he was the real thing. adam parrish had thought that his heart was all cracked, barren earth.  and then a forest grew from it.

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auroralynches:

but god, adam so clearly loves the barns and associates them with safety and belonging and home so much more than he ever does the trailer park and that just speaks such volumes about his relationship with ronan and how even though they fight constantly and people think ronan seems scary or intimidating or criminal, adam never, not even once, thinks of him as anything other than safe

#like?? the sense of safety in adam’s narration re: ronan is amazing#i mean not that he feels any less safe around the other main characters#but ronan is so violent and harsh and physical#that the fact that adam–a survivor of serious physical abuse–can stand 2 feet away as ronan destroys a room#and be totally and completely calm#really speaks to how utterly sure he is that ronan would never hurt him#that his physical violence would never turn towards him#that’s a frankly amazing level of trust to have in someone#especially for a very recent abuse survivor#and these tags are completely veering off from my original point which was:#adam fantasizes about growing up at the barns#adam fantasizes about being ‘allowed to want this home for himself’#adam is amazed ronan’s so fierce when the barns are so protected#adam thinks of the barns as safety and a home#even if it’s not his personally#just fuck me up (via auroralynches)

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hcnrycheng:

i think my fav exchange in trk was when the gray man says “ive been thinking abt adam parrish and his band of merry men..” and maura was like ‘im p sure the male protagonist of this series is gansey…..’ and the gray man is just like ‘lmao…… we can all have our opinions’

#LISTEN THIS MOMENT GAVE ME LIFE #it was so brilliant to basically get a character casually lean on the fourth wall #and state that even though gansey is nominally the protagonist #SO MUCH of the books’ plot revolves around adam #nearly every big decision/gamechanger was a result of adam’s actions #awakening the line; bringing cabeswater back; figuring out how to awaken the skeletons; figuring out how to save gansey #and i also love that it’s the gray man stating it #because he’s kind of emotionally removed from the situation #like these kids all love gansey #gansey is their north star; their leader; their king #and so they all instantly assume he’s the protagonist of this tale #maura does too #and the gray man being mostly an outsider and a character who’s been shown to be very cool/pragmatic #just points out that technically when you come down to it #adam parrish is the male lead of this adventure #it was always about him saving himself #ever since he decided fate was bullshit and drew another card and bet on it: magician #or perhaps even before that #because adam’s had to bet on himself his whole life #and saved himself and his friends along the way (via amiracleofmovingparts)