whatmack:

@do-i-still-love-kevin-day​ here’s some, I’m using 2 half-broken keyboards so forgive my impatience but here’s some rambling about Kevin Big Big Bisexual Day

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So sexuality isn’t a big deal in the Nest

Exy is the reason they’re there, the only thing that matters; there’s no time to worry about who likes what up where, or doesn’t

If someone’s around and y’all want to get it on so you can go back to practice without being distracted, then you do

and you don’t talk about it b/c 1) unimportant and 2) they KNOW there’s homophobia in the press, they don’t care who likes who but they’re not going let any info out that would affect their careers

• (it’s not like Raven Secrecy™ is limited to sexual orientations, after all)

So when Kevin gets to Palmetto he’s utterly confused about Nicky and Seth’s insistence upon categorizing everyone as gay or straight

• why does it matter
• it just gets them into arguments
• when they ask, Kevin’s “it’s easier to be straight” isn’t him trying to be closeted, it’s him trying to get them to stay the fuck on task and remind them that, there’s a GAME, and some people want CAREERS, jesus

He doesn’t mind nicky being out bc nicky’s not going pro so it won’t affect his life so nicky being happy n proud is like, go u, w/e, stop letting the Terrapins past you jfc

Kevin knows the word “bisexual” and yeah he guesses that’s him but he’s not devoted a lot of thought to it

• it’s not Exy, why would he
• he…watches nicky sometimes, though, because nicky takes such comfort in being Loudly Out
• he…wonders. huh. would…if he thought about it, in this strange outside-Evermore world where things matter that shouldn’t, being part of that kind of loving community is…well. it’s an idea that sticks
• still not as important as Exy
• Kevin will keep worrying at that thought, though, and if the next time Roland offers to set him up with a girl at Eden’s, Kevin says, “or anyone, really, I’m— I’m bisexual,” then Roland’s grin feels like a handshake, a slap on the back
• It’s a good feeling

(later Kevin unpacks the whole deal that is feeling romantic attraction for multiple genders, too; romance wasn’t really a part of Evermore)

(he’s gonna be okay)
(he’s gonna kiss Thea Muldani and Jeremy Knox and hold both their hands, too)

(he’s never gonna be the one hanging out atop the float, he’s not comfortable with that kind of attention and need to be constantly On and Cheerful, but he’ll stand in the crowd at pride with pink, blue, and purple paint on his cheek and smile)