andrewjmnyrd:

ways andrew and neil show affection:

• andrew helping neil out of his gear when he blows his arms out during a game and can barely lift his racquet anymore
• if neil notices how andrew’s hands linger a little longer on his skin than they should, he doesn’t mention it
• andrew waking up to the smell of coffee, and a just-came-out-of-the-shower-and-dripping-wet neil, messing around in their kitchen making breakfast for them both
• he’ll never admit it, but neil does it mostly so he can have andrew’s silent thank you kiss on the back of his neck
• sitting on the couch or in a booth or anywhere just a little too close, just so that their thighs touch and neil can remember that this is home
• andrew letting neil’s head loll on his shoulder when they’re in the bus back from a game and neil is too exhausted to stay awake 
• ‘i hate you’
• walking side to side close enough that their shoulders bump every few steps
• on the best days, andrew holding neil’s pinky with his own
• neil leaving notes every morning before going for a run, and ending them with ‘i’ll be back’ everytime
• when they’re watching tv, andrew letting neil lay his head in his lap and carefully running his fingers through the mess of his hair, brushing his bangs out of his face and tucking them behind his ears
• (neil has never been able to tell who doing this calmed down more)
• the familiar weight of andrew’s hand on the back of his neck, and a calm but strict ‘abram’ spoken into his ear
• neil sleeping on the couch on nights andrew can’t stand having him close, and never asking for more than what he’s given
• ‘yes or no?’
• the weight of the name ‘neil’, pushed into his mouth along with andrew’s tongue, grounding him and making his head spin 
• sharing cigarettes and kisses on rooftops in the cold and dead of night until neither of them can feel their lips or fingertips
• ‘stay’