but like how terrifying must it have been for andrew to experience this heart pounding fixation w someone like he never has before in his LIFE
and to come off of his meds and realize his feelings are real & unavoidable
falling back on his medication as an excuse for the strangeness in his heart, having that excuse ripped out from under him so all that’s left is neil staring and following and asking him for things
and realizing he wants to give him it all
like wtF man