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Of course he doesn’t want to leave the rink. Of course he doesn’t want it to be over. Yuuri never once actually wanted to retire. His anxiety constantly got in the way of what he desired from himself- telling him to let Victor go because Victor wanted to return to competitive skating anyway, telling him that he won’t be able to last much longer because his body won’t hold out, telling him that his only choice was to retire after this season because it would be better for everyone involved- when in reality the opposite was always true. 

Although Yuuri has been skating for over a decade, it wasn’t until this season that he finally found enjoyment and fulfillment and inspiration in his own skating, and we can all see how much better he’s become for it, in both his technical skill and in the way he lives his life. Only just now has he found his own version of Life and Love- the confidence and beauty and love that Victor brought into Yuuri’s life. And he hasn’t even realized his full potential with this new inspiration. He has yet to win gold, but he’s more than capable of it. If he was able to tap into his current mindset on the day of the Grand Prix short program, he would have won the whole damn thing. All of us can see that this isn’t an end for Yuuri- it’s just the beginning.

And after months of telling himself that this was his last season, that he was going to have Victor step down as his coach and then retire from professional figure skating (yes, in that order- because skating was always about Victor for Yuuri) he reaches the end of his final skate- and it clicks. Of course he doesn’t want it to end when he’s only just begun. This is the sport that he loves, the sport that he dedicated his life to, the sport that brought Victor into his life and everything that entails. When faced with the end of everything precious to him, Yuuri finally realized how much it meant to him- realized that he wasn’t ready to give it all up.